Heather's post got me thinking about my own little Mother's Day loss. I lost a son, Josiah Ray, 2 days before Mother's Day of 2004. I was devastated, and had such a hard time moving past it. And I- just today, holding my precious sleeping son in my arms-realized that God is so awesome, in that He knows a better future for ourselves than we do. Trusting in Him is not always (or ever) easy, but it's so worth it to get to the end result He had for you all along. I could not imagine my life without Josh's intoxicating giggles, his frequently offered kisses, and yes, even his headstrong independence. My little man fought hard to get here, and all I went through, from the loss of Josiah all the way through the traumatic near loss birth of Josh and the year following, where we dealt with more health problems than I ever thought I could, brought me here, to this moment, where I have a loving husband who would do anything to make me happy, two little girls that continually fill my soul with sunshine and my life with love, and one blue eyed little boy, who completes our family and fills my heart to bursting. Someday, I'll see my first son, and I look forward to that day, to hearing him call me "mom", but until then, I'm right where I want to be, with these 3.
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Happy Mother's Day love! And look at that little man...what a dollbaby!! Blue's a good color on him! :)
OMG... I'm a blubbering idiot right now... Happy Mother's Day!
Happy mother' day! Very touching journaling and beautiful pic!
This is so beautiful Jenn and that poem you posted on the board really made me cry. It is worth it to wait and see what his plan is and your son is beautiful.
Wow Jenn, what an experience. Congrats on being able to understand God's infinate grace. That is not easy to do.
Jenn--a very touching heartfelt post. I admire your hard-won perspective, and know that your faith in Heavenly Father's plans will be rewarded. I remember this shot of J--the hat and his BLUE eyes is such a stunning combo.
What a touching post. So sorry for your loss and glad you have a wonderful family to love and love you.
Okay, Jenn, I'm so teary eyed right now- very sweet post and great picture of that blue-eyed little boy!
Jenn, what a beautiful story of your journey. I am truly touched. Your son is such a handsome little guy too! You have a blessed family!
cheers,
Jewels
Thank you, Jen, for sharing your very moving journaling and your inspirational perspective on life. The photo of your son, and his expression and eyes, is just adorable!
Very touching Jenn. I was imagining things right along side you when I read your words. Someday indeed we'll see our Josiah and Kendall, but hold tight to our kids on this Earth. He's such a precious little man.
Oh Jenn, that was just so beautiful!! I just don't have words to express how that made me feel.
very touching journaling and awesome photos
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