Wednesday, July 30, 2008

July 31, 2008

Turn your speakers up.

For the next three nights, I'm going to be telling the stories of the kids' songs. I love music, it's been part of my soul from the day I was born, and I sing constantly. DH tells me I'm like living with a musical. So, when my babies were born, I sang to them. And though I sang a lot of songs to them, they each seemed to grasp onto their own, and it became "their" song. I can fully imagine my girls wanting their songs played at their weddings someday, if I ever let them get married (LOL). They have the same heart for music that I do-for them, music makes a lasting memory, and the song is written on their soul. I can remember my mom singing to me all the time, too (she still does) and those songs are part of me now.

Kymberly Diane-Bad English, "When I See You Smile"

My oldest daughter. My quirky, funny little Kymberly. My sensitive, giving, servant-hearted girl. She's been a challenge, and a joy, and I wouldn't trade a minute of it. When she was a baby, I was living in a town I hated, with a husband that worked all the time, and it was just me and my girl for hours, sometimes days, on end. And I was young, and miserable, and wanting my own momma, instead of this lonely life I had chosen. And then my girl would smile. A sweet, gummy little grin that would just bleach out all the negative, all the bad in my life. It didn't matter that I was lonely or sad-I had this precious baby in my arms, and she was smiling at me. I didn't care about anything else. She was all I needed.

9 years later, I still feel all the bad fall away when she turns that smile on for me.

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11 comments:

Mom2Drew said...

What a wonderful mommy you are! I love that you never pretend to be perfect and are the first to admit your mistakes. It makes me love you all the more. This song is beautiful, she's beautiful and I just want to meet you more now.

pat said...

Just makes my heart warm!! She is such a pretty girl; her eyes are amazing. I am glad that she was such a blessing to you at a rough time.

For Over 29 Years... said...

what sweet sentiment. That just such an adorable picture.

Amy said...

Awww! Sweet!

Angela2932 said...

Wonderful journaling, and she definitely does have a life-brightening, heart-tugging smile! I can see how she had you at day one!

Joanne Fowler said...

What a beautiful post! Your daughter is beautiful and you are creating wonderful memories for both of you to cherish forever!

Michelle said...

totally brought tears to my eyes reading your journaling and the song playing. she is just a beautiful girl. i can totally see that she is a blessing.

Tori said...

What a sweet post! Just reading and seeing your beautiful DD made me smile big this morning.

Heather said...

That story gave me goose-bumps, so sweet and touching.

I always love looking at your pictures, Jenn.

Jess said...

OK. Bawling. My. Eyes. Out! I absolutely ADORE that song and it compliments Kym SO WELL- I can totally see why you could never feel bad when she smiles that beautiful smile at you! LOVE IT! :)

IndieJane said...

Seriously, could that girl look any more like Cory?